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November 17 The Magic of the NightWhen the stars are in the skies, make a wish then close your eyes. Are you dreaming, angels singing, everything is right. It's the magic of the night. Far horizons made of snow, bring the hopes each child will know. Someone's dreaming, bells are ringing, everything is white. It's the magic of the night. High up in the sky, can you see a shining light? Can it be that we can see an angel who is flying, flying? Can an angel lose their way, who of us on earth can say? Someone's dreaming, angels singing, everything is right. It's the magic of the night. High up in the sky, can you see a shining light? Can it be that we can see an angel who is flying, flying? When the stars are in the skies, make a wish then close your eyes. Are you dreaming, bells are ringing, angels are in flight. It's the magic of the night. Angels are in flight, it's the magic of the night. today was the craziest day ever....Wwooohh..i really cant imagine that today i drove a car in pj area for the first time hahaaa.. although it sounds like..”cheh..it’s normal things ma… BUT, just because i’m not always practice my driving skills since i get my car lessen ler.. hahhaa.. so, i was super happy and excited!! hmmm.. This will be recorded as historical date in my life..wakakka..crazy me =.= November 16 self improvement is a journey, not a destination. ...Today morning’s 2.05 am weather is considered pretty cold for me. Therefore, I go quickly wrap myself up in blanket & spending my time blogging here.. hhhmm…it’s
has been a few days since i didn’t update
my spaceblog lo. Why?????because i got no mood and don’t know what to write here
lo.hahha..week 5 lo..time flies so fast, but my fyp progress still slow like
TURTLE. GOSH..!!!campaign preparation
still only half way there.. SOS !!!! i still remember during the last 2 weeks..
i just keep quiet, lazy to talk and gonna
to live in my imaginary world. That’s it!!! It sounds like scary right..????hahaa~
i really feel frustrated, helpless and
intended to hurt myself as well. What a stupid mind on me????? It makes me
realize that my “self protection” which need
to be improved!! I feel suffering because i see my “problem” and still can’t
get effective solution to cure..i hate myself…why still stop in the beginning and
didn’t put effort on myself improvement journey to the future???? …i tell you it’s really
killing me when i saw my weaknesses still existed. Hhaha…after calm down, i
tell myself MUST always learn from mistakes, its okay to make mistakes in life
& keep learning lo..always stay
positive, try my best at everything..and don’t live in regret ..cheerrsss =) my mummy ar..you must take care of urself ya..i love youuuu deep in my heart…muaccsckksss November 09 every part of meMy time, millions of miles away Time I've felt more and more these days I've been down this raddy open road Nothing left to lead me on Now I just don't know who I really am How it's gonna be, is it something that I can't see? I won't understand Maybe who I was before Maybe I don't even know her anymore Maybe who I am today ain't so far from yesterday Can I find a way to be every part of me? But I never thought I'd feel this way Maybe who I was before Maybe I don't know her anymore Maybe who I am today ain't so far from yesterday Can I find a way to be every part of me? Though I'll find time broken down To find my path so my feet can touch the ground Yeah, it will take time but I know everything will be alright 'Cause nothing in life has changed on the inside Maybe I will never be who I was before Maybe I don't know her anymore Maybe who I am today ain't so far from yesterday Can I find a way to be every part of me? Every part of me November 07 aza-aza fighting!!!Now I almost getting crazier here.. can anyone bring me to playground or game station let me to recharge my energy UP????????? At this period of time, I need to believe in myself that I can handle and finish all my tasks!! Ganbatte!!!!aza-aza fighting!!! stress..ssertsThis Wednesday I went for stress management mode
campaign that organized by senior. In my point of view, I quite enjoy with the overall
program especially sketch performance. I like character of Samantha much…hahaa..because
“she = HE”s so damn funny wei…Besides
that, the chicken dance looks like a bit innocence, BUT It’s nice when we danced together. Errmm..although some
technical error happened on that day, but I think it can be excused
ba..heee..hopefully in our campaign it
won’t happen to us such things. God bless ya. After I finished listening stress talk by (xxxx) {I have forgotten her name & position }=p ,paiseh-nya but the content of the slides, I can still roughly remember la. For eg : "managing anger & stress immediate : picture urself as a superman / mr.bean". haha..does it works ar????? I am still wondering because i like to watch mr.bean series of kidding show. SooOo, I think it’s time to let myself practice and apply this quote on my daily life. i realized that the symptoms of stress that described by her is totally match with me!!!Gosshh, I hate this feeling/!!!!..i don’t want it’s coming towards & destroy my life. Please just go away from me!!! Take a deep breath 1, 2, 3 + laugh “ha ha ha” & smile =) although I am really stressful now with my y3s2 academic matters + FYP. But, it’s doesn’t matter!!!!take it easy and fighting arrrr!!!! Remember, It’s just a part of challenge in my life only..JUST DO IT !!! don’t die of stress ya…kekekee, Besides that, I believe stress can also creating a better me!!! =) GO go GOoooo. Mum told me yesterday, ah wei: do you know I want to go to operate on this 12 of nov in government hospital?????me : arrr???you always stay in healthy..but,how come????i really don’t know!!!! U didn’t tell me b4!! Am I too bad?????? (HEARTPAIN) i still remember previous, I call my mum almost everyday to kacau her.But now, I really seldom call back to home. Mum.. I am so sorry to you, I didn’t concern you and just care of myself only…I am so bad!!!sometimes almost always quarrel to you ..because you are too concerned about me. You make me feel “烦” But, seriously, i knew all advice you give is so much valuable to me. I sayang you forever…muaccks =)
Me = “ mimosa”??Hhhmm…today i woke up so early and went to school as usual…tired betul…>.<!!! i just finished lunch with my previous colleagues. I am really happy to meet them again but still feel a bit nervous…arrr..y ar? y i got such feelings??????? Yooo..just now i really want to join their topics as well…but i still look same old become a listener only….=(…sigh..*** why i still very shy when talking in front of them..stupid la me…what’s wrong with me…why i cannot like Jason can talk well to everyone?????? I am wondering..haiz..whatever la..i think that i should go practice myself in front of a mirror every half an hour everyday.…>.<!!!hahahaaa…=.=””””as puan anita said..she wont be ”unhealthy” people..coz she can mixed with everyone. hehee..I also want to be a healthy people oneday. Hahaaa..ganbatte lo... November 01 the showI'm just a little bit caught in the middle Life is a maze I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried And I don't know why Slow it down Make it stop Or else my heart is going to pop I'm just a little girl lost in the moment I'm so scared but I don't show it I can't figure it out It's bringing me down I know I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show nov 1stGood morning everyone..=) wahh..i want to say again that the time passed very fast ar….today is Nov 2 2009 (Monday). It’s a new month again arrr…Yooo…stay cheer ya!!!…kekeke.. I went to UTAR setapak this afternoon. Hhhhmm..i really got such feeling that i never felt like strong this b4..i have started a long distance with them except Sherril and my soulmate ba..i am sorry & sad to say that and i try to hide this feeling of mine till tear drops in my eyes at sec 14 bus stop! Stupid me…i;m know i am not supposed to write the negative feelings here as this spaceblog might have the opportunity for everybody to see it..BUT, that’s exactly how i feel…anywhere, today i am really good to see you again ar sherril,,hheheee..wishes for ur internship everything is fine with you and miss ya.=) After they had finished meeting, so, we ate lunch together somewhere near UTAR setapak there. After this a large group of css went to KLCC. Woahh..That;s a huge group trip. =p. me and qiao wen a bit wryer sot today. We run in front of crowd at klcc and seems like a bit of loss control..but i got a feeling “syok-nya” kaaakaka..uuumm..Except for window shopping, we watched movie--Jennifer;s body. Oh gosh..this movie make me feel i am watching sex in cinema..hahhaa..because quite a lot of the closest scene about make love there lo…although i knew this is horrible movie part la..zha dao betul! At night, i went to pei xu’s house coz have pr 7 bbq gathering there.hhahaa..This gathering is especially early celebrate Nov and Dec birthday babies in our class..yuuppyeahhhh.. i am the one Dec baby yooo..thanks early celebrate with me ya…Nov 1st ah mei birthday just passed and here i wanna wish her happy birthday again and all dreams come true ya..muacksss..
October 28 knock knock..I want to get away from
if if you have negative energy, go take a hot bath and let it dissipate before you share it with others. No one really cares about negative energy you might have, so why share it??? October 25 innocenceWho am i ? i am who?????????SIGH…why does this question appear in my mind again!!!!..what’s wrong with me..i really hate this feeling of doubt! arrrr…!! i wanna screaming out loudly now!!! Arrr…arrrr…arrrrr…ok….now it’s done. =) let’s the music addicted to me when i feel bad about myself.. Waking up I see that <tata>I like to listen to chi lam’s songs especially this one < 祝君好> because i got a feeling about the music video when i heard..it;’s super nice..everytime i listen to this song, i’m sure it will repeat more than a few times till my soulmate “beh-tahan” to me..hahaa… I saw a rainbow in the sky on that day ( i’ve already forgotten when..just know within this week ) i really get excited when i saw it, because it’s been a really long long long time that i didn’t see the rainbow!!!!…red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo & violet. So nice arrr... =) not only that, rainbow means to me is a good sign like fortune…hahaha..although it doesn’t have any scientifically proven cases la..it’s only just my personal perception..=3 paiseh-nya..i;m still naïve ya!!!hahaaa 11.10.09 (Sunday) we went to bukit tabur to see the sunrise. Unfortunately due to bad weather that morning, we cant see it..sobbsoobb.. im just back from Tanjung Malim yesterday with geng css friends. We stayed 2 days 1 night in yenwen’s house because we attended to our new batch of css junior who organize< 生活营> towards primary school pupils at slim river there. Meanwhile, we also went to see a waterfall located at ?? (i forgot the name of this place..kekeee.. & went on a picnic at proton city area) syok-nya!! Thanks to yenwen & yen wei to be our “small” tour guides yaa and of course thanks to yenwen’s mother, father & brother who are treated us so well. Yyooooo…my semester holiday already finished. sad-nya.. haiz..the short sem will reopen on Monday. i started getting scared coz need to take 2 subjects, fyp, campaign, , <parttime job- i am still searching time that match me)etc....>.<!!!! and wonder about my ability how to handle it all!!! But i really gotta try something new experience !!! =3 bless me everything is going well..=) & my 1st part time job will be on 31th october (saturday) & duration of the charity walkathon event one day only. so , now i'm waiting other part time job find me as well...hahhaha...aza=aza fighting yo!!!! =) October 17 I knew…I knew… it’s not easy to build a bridge in my future life. But i gotta try.. Because life only pass us once…. |
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